Wednesday, June 14, 2017

A Contaminated Soul Healed

There are times in our lives that there seems to be no end to our hardships.  There is one mountain after another to climb. Sometimes each mountain seems higher then the one before.  It is so easy to get discouraged with the endless journey of hardship and bad breaks. If we let our hardships and bad breaks define our present and our future then the hardship will continue to progress into even bigger mountains.
I spent most of my life wallowing in my hardships and continuously focusing on my problems it was nearly impossible to see the good.  My thoughts consumed me day and night and I honestly thought that there was no end to the hardship.  I had accepted that this was the way of my life and that nothing would come easy.  Life was a battle a very difficult journey.  This journey was turning me into a very bitter and vengeful person. I did not have the capacity or the know how to snap out of it. It just kept perpetuating and eating away at my soul until there was virtually nothing left of it.  Just an angry bitter soul that did not even know what happiness was anymore.  Anger was the only emotion I knew and happy people just annoyed me. I felt robbed and cheated and hated life. I went about my daily business, but did so miserably.

Sunday, March 12, 2017

Suicide Kills Another One

When I woke up Friday it was like any other day.  It was 4:00 am and I sipped on my coffee with my husband and felt blessed and grateful to live another day. Just opening your eyes are two blessings to be grateful for.  I grab for my phone to see what the world was up too while I was sleeping.  Social media is far more informative then the news or the newspapers. I  generally start with Facebook and then move on to the other outlets.

This day though was drastically different then all the others when I was browsing Facebook because I came across some really troubling posts.   They are below and I have changed the names to protect the privacy of the family

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Ugh I Am A Facebook Junkie I need An Intervention

Sorry for the long-winded post, but I just feel compelled to say something and it may enrage you so if it does feel free to remove as a friend I promise I will not get offended. I joined Facebook in 2007 or when ever it was deployed. I was so excited because I could connect with some people in my life that I had not seen nor spoken to for a long time. At first it was great, but now I am plagued with utter disappointment.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

Are you happy with your reflection?

After speaking with you last week I took your advice and thought about it and you were right. I should look inside myself as opposed to others and it was great advice, but since you are so busy giving great advice then I suggest you take it yourself. When I dig down deep I find a compassionate, caring non-judgmental person whom chooses see’s the best in everyone despite their evident flaws.

Monday, January 2, 2017

Help I am Dealing With Millennials the Generation Me Era!

 "I have morals” is what my eighteen year old son had said to me recently. As a parent this was one of the proudest moments of parenting. I know others would probably have greater aspirations for their children like to be a doctor, lawyer, professional sports star and many others, but for me if my children have morals that is the greatest compliment. Both of my children are considered Millennials also known as Generation X, Generation Me and Echo Boomers.

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

The Power of Kindness

Help Others = Helping Yourself!

Was driving my nephew and his girlfriend home today drove and passed a Halton police officer, then I saw a girl just sitting on the ground in perfect view of the police. I pulled over because I thought she may have broken something as it was very icy. She said "can you please help me I am having a rough day. Every time I try and walk I keep falling and I need to get to the Go station." She was cold and scared so I took her there.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

The Roller Coaster Ride of a Terminal Cancer Diagnosis

Moving On

I am now an orphan at forty seven, missing the influence that my mother and father once had in my life here on earth. I know they are my guardian angels now and I often find myself saying out loud “right mom, right dad?” One of my regrets is not appreciating life sooner than I have, and taking for granted the simple things like not being hungry or the ability to see, or valuing and cherishing all of the time I had with my folks.  There are just too many to list. but  my mother’s passing has a profound impact on my life.